Ain't that swell?

Don't you hate when you think you're doing well. Like, everyone told it was great and then the day before it's supposed to happen it's all wrong? Yes, that is happening to me right now. And it is the day before my piano competition. Mrs. Irina told me last week I was ready so I did practice alot and I thought it was ready. And then today what I did for an hour in piano lessons for a whole hour was play the song that is only a minute and thirty seconds. Okay, a whole hour. Playing a song over and over again makes you go crazy. So, Mrs. Irina decides that everything must be perfect. She corrects the dynamics till the hurt my fingers, and you know that 1 missing accent I always miss she decided today the day before the competition was the day to fix it. Too bad I am used to playing it like that. I have been playing it like that for what? Maybe 6 monthes and the day before I have to change it. AHHHH. I actually cried when I left piano today. I was crying in the car because now I don't feel ready at all. And I hate how all piano's are different so it won't sound the same ANYWHERE. So this is great. I don't feel ready although I thought I was ready, my piano competition is tomorrow at 10:30. Atleast I don't have to go to school tomorrow, and tonight I will have to practice my ass off. And Mrs. Irina said I should only practice the song twice or 3 times tomorrow so I can go to the competition fresh. That works too right? All I know is, please pray for me. I have to win. I have too. My whole self worth is on this. And if I don't win I am truly worthless. Okay, goodbye.